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just another manic monday…

Wishes, good grief!

Wish, according to Wikipedia is a hope or desire for something.

In the spur of a moment, when a person is overtaken by grief might wish for an end to one’s life. Or in a fit of rage, wish the other person would just disappear. Or in unspoken joy, wish that the moment will last forever. Or in tears, wish one never knew the person causing them to flow.

What would have been the outcome, had I chosen not to join the game that fateful night? Maybe a quarrel could’ve happened which prevented me from going. Maybe fatigue could’ve come upon me and I went home.

What would have been the outcome had I not reverted that email?
What would have happened had we not decided to have that lunch?
What would have happened had we not spoken?
What would have happened had we not met?

Just a small tweak of fate. Just that one moment that would have made a difference between knowing another intimately and being mere passers by.
Why do 2 people in this entire universe cross paths?
Why do you end up best of friends with some people, talk nineteen to dozen and just can’t get head or tail of what another is trying to tell you?

What do you know? This entry took a different course as it progressed. Turned it into a muse instead of a post with a single question that simply says.
“I kinda wish I never met you.”

But whenever I think this thought, I can’t really bring myself to believe it. If there was a button for me to push to erase all the memories, all those tears, all those hurts, the neglect and rejection I felt, will I gladly press down?
With my hand poised over it, a montage of other memories which will disappear along with those slowly paraded through my mind.

The heartwarming words, the thoughtfulness, the camarederie, the joy, the banter, the security, the trust, the steadfastness and the sureness which I have never found with anyone else.

And I realized that I couldn’t bring myself to press down on that button after all. Just one little push and it’s all gone. I can’t. Can’t bring myself to do it. To forget everything. Was it worth it? I would like to think so. Is it worth taking this risk, knowing that the future is so volatile and unsure? Maybe.

Destiny grants us our wishes, but in its own way, in order to give us something beyond our wishes.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Destiny has two ways of crushing us – by refusing our wishes and by fulfilling them.
Henri Frederic Amiel

We all have our own life to pursue, our own kind of dream to be weaving, and we all have the power to make wishes come true, as long as we keep believing.
Louisa May Alcott

When you love someone all your saved up wishes start coming out.
Elizabeth Bowen

Where there is great love, there are always wishes.
Willa Cather

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