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just another manic monday…

Doubt

That horrible despair of a sinking feeling creeps into my heart.
I’m starting to doubt myself. Maybe I thought too highly of my capability to adapt to any situation. Of course, trying something new is always good. Even when I fail, I’ll realize what doesn’t work for me, you know?
I’m on that cliff teetering on the edge, my feet threatening to crawl over the edge and plunge me to those sharp, black rocks below. Oh, I don’t know.
I feel so listless lately. I feel like all the hope is being zapped out of my life.
My friends have moved on to various stages of their life. But I seemed to be stuck here at the very same spot I landed and dragged myself to 5 years ago.
Know that feeling of wanting to move but your feet are planted on the ground, roots snaking around your ankles and they seemed to have decided to root you to that particular spot? That’s the very way I feel.
I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost. What am I capable, is it just a front I’m putting up? Am I falling apart?

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